The little one has developed new habits. He randomly screams like he is trying to say something or sing (my husband thinks the little one is testing the functionality of his vocal cords). He wakes up in the middle of the night for ‘playtime’ (this is perhaps due to frequent flying and his body’s adjustment to timezone changes). He moves a lot during diaper change (this makes diaper change a struggle between mother and son). He grabs my phone and interrupts my texts. He pinches me so hard it hurts and occasionally chews my nipples. He pulls my hair so hard it hurts.
Sometimes, I get a little bit upset about these new developments. However, most times I simply go with the flow and enjoy the moment. I am grateful for the privilege to be his mother. It’s hard, difficult and pointless to be mad at my baby because he is yet to develop the ability to differentiate between wrong and right. In fact, he smiles when I tell him he has done something wrong.
This situation reminds me of Jesus’s statement on the cross. Despite the pain, shame and discomfort, He was able to say “Father forgive them for they know not what they are doing” Luke 23:24. Forgiveness becomes easy when we understand that those who have wronged us or hurt us do not truly know what they are doing. Jesus understood the weakness and limitation of humans and extended forgiveness in the worst situation. He forgave those who betrayed, deserted, hurt and despised Him. My desire is to be like Jesus. To love like He loves and forgive consistently like He forgives.